Saturday, August 6, 2016

Pan and Hiz Worms, 2016

Pan & Hiz Worms


I find myself a most vicious pan
After the god
And because it is
Forced upon me
The pretending of a man


I jauntily accept and even
Cherish the pretending
Because it feels
maybe,
close, slight
To recognition.


But I also
Work it out of my body
Like a worm


Because I know it’s not good for the health:
To be a man.


And yet I keep on pan
Pandering
de-worming
Pretending
Right on cue
Clockwork pomme
The finest refined actor,
Like many of us:
For all our lives.


But!
the deworming
Leaves a residue
A scent
My history is stained
With olfactory factories
Chugging out the truth
While the birds die.


And the gods to which i
Pander to
Know
That I ruse
I pretend
I hide some details
Here and there


And they peek out
Of my work pants
And plaid red shirt.


While I lay
very flat
Against the crotch of
my stiff cotton trousers.


I
Pan
Pandering
Pretending to be a man.

A Man.