Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Quote of this Moment: Messenger

Integration is a lives-long process that involves the discernment, analysis, then synthesis of the inevitably accumulated experience of interaction between You and the Other.


Monday, April 29, 2013

The Mind is Not my Authority

our inspiration is coming from within us. It isn‘t coming from out there. It‘s coming from within; we store everything. We don't access everything, but we take it all in. It's out of that that comes our possibilities of clarity, of doubt, of thinking.


Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Differentiation is All the Same Really

"You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at and exploring itself."

Alan Watts

Monday, April 22, 2013


Individuals don't care about many things. 
They care about their thing.

To be in this fractal line of deep individuation, there isn't room to care much for anything else but the self. Even those individuals who are all about universalizing their experience are still doing just that-- still doing what is deeply caught up in their experience. Anything and everything is so deeply tainted by their individuation lens that touching the Other, inevitably, is often downright baffling. And very necessary. For without the Other, the tribals, the individuals, the collective peoples, the fierce individuals wouldn't be. Very simple to me now. In practice it is still so funny, so queer. 

I ruminate, self righteous, egomaniacal tendency(s) of mine, so viscous and thick in my bloodways.

It is really wonderful when the individual, the crux of its own mutation, gets to meet the Other. When mutants touch the Other, be it the tribe, the collective, or another mutant. The touching is nice, inevitable, fuzzy warm. And it goes well along with the change-as-the-only-constant whorl of a biverse-universe we live in. 

Individuals can't care about many things.
They care about their own thing.


>>M .A. R>>

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Individuation: The Mutant Individual Stream

All learning, real learning, takes seven years. It takes seven years to change approximately all of the cells in the body. We live in a seven year cycle. The moment that you begin to come to your own nature, the moment that you allow your body to live its life without resistance, you begin a deep process of deconditioning. Seven years later, you emerge, quite literally, as a new being: yourself. It's one of the great jokes that human beings don't get to live out their own lives. It is because of that, that they don't get to live out their own lives; that life seems to be such a difficult experience for them. We know that there is a lot of stuff around about being yourself. It is all fine and good for somebody to stand up and tell you to be yourself, but you have to know who that self is.

 Quote(s) in early sunshine soaked self-love rumination:

" I'm not going to tell you how to live your life, what to do, whom to do, where to do it. I'm not a dictator. Perhaps the only way I am a dictator is in regard to my self. . ."

 "I am only my own dictator. And even in that capacity I'm lazy and rebellious and largely out of control."

amour de soi meme
y para ti
<M.A. R>

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

<+The Heart Girl with a Serpent Is My Name+>

the Serpent doesn’t really sleep, it is we who are asleep to its presence and potential blessing

Alchemy can be seen as a sort of depth psychology. Alchemical symbols function as archetypes and exist within every human being, and that alchemy can have the key to unlocking an understanding of the innermost and unconscious part of the psyche, which is supposed to be the main part of our being (using the analogy with the iceberg, 90% of which is hidden under the sea).

From a 19th C. Alchemical Text

 The mundane Nature-Spirit: (1) pours itself into the Central-Fire of
the earth, (2) starts working in that fire, (3) is bound in mercurial
moisture and liquid form, (4) is impelled to and fro, through the
Archaeum of the Earth, as a saturated wind, (5) is congealed by
Saturn, and (6) is thrown to the ground in front of the Alchemist,
like the true metallic gore (the metal's seed).

The Alchemist: (1) recognizes this as the most valuable treasure on
earth, (2) takes it home joyfully, (3) inserts it into the glass
coffin, (4) binds it with the gaseous Mercury, (5) seals the coffin,
(6) watches the black Raven grow in the putrefaction, (7) is reborn
in the Paradisiacal Kingdom to corporal Diana, and (8) is crowned as
the  Child  of  the  Sun.

"The Human Design System is a reading of your genetic code. The star fields create your shape as you grow and are then born. This shape indicates your essential truths. These essential truths are simple because they are mechanical. What is mechanical in us, the way in which our genes operate, is that the moment we try to interfere with their operation we descend into a life of confusion, chaos, and pain. In the end, they will have their way.We are passengers in these bodies. We are passenger consciousness experiencing the life. Buddha taught that the body is not yours. It is not. Yet at the same time, we are totally dependent on it. That is the tragedy of a sick body. We are totally dependent on our vehicles. To learn how to operate them properly, and it is really to learn how to allow them to operate properly, immediately brings benefits. This is not complex and it will not be in complex language. It is very straightforward and very logical. It is accessible to anyone of any age. Anyone can have access to this knowledge. This is not simply about saying, "Aha, I'm this or that". It is about having the opportunity to do something with knowledge; to be able to act on it. In acting on it, in experimenting with its logic, a remarkable experience of finding and ultimately living one's true life can occur.

All learning, real learning, takes seven years. It takes seven years to change approximately all of the cells in the body. We live in a seven year cycle. The moment that you begin to come to your own nature, the moment that you allow your body to live its life without resistance, you begin a deep process of deconditioning. Seven years later, you emerge, quite literally, as a new being: yourself. It's one of the great jokes that human beings don't get to live out their own lives. It is because of that, that they don't get to live out their own lives; that life seems to be such a difficult experience for them. We know that there is a lot of stuff around about being yourself. It is all fine and good for somebody to stand up and tell you to be yourself, but you have to know who that self is.

Life is a duality. It is revealed through our moralities. There is always going to be this and that. There is always going to be the good and the bad. There is always going to be success and there is always going to be failure. It is the nature of what it is to be human and to live out the spectrum of human experience. " -Ra Uru Hu

64 Codons of the DNA Genetic Code
64 Hexagrams of the I Ching

The basis of kabbalah is that through increasing levels of density, humanity came into its present state of physical incarnation and psychic evolution. Through rituals, exercises, and meditations, the energy latent in creation generally, and the body of the practitioner in particular, can be “awakened”, purified, and directed. This energy can then be used for spiritual development, psychic expansion, or physical health and improvement.

the FOUR elements: 
The Divine mind of God, the Absolute, or in Hebrew the Ain Soph Aur (Limitless Light), through a series of expansions and contractions establishes the boundaries of Creation. The first world is the most subtle, and closest to the original state of non-existence, and is Atzilooth. This is called the world of Fire, because of the lively, undefined, and almost uncontrollable nature of fire. Next is Briah, or the World of Archetypes and forms as our human mind can grasp them. It is symbolized as the World of Air, and is the result as a barrier world that is formed by the creation of the next World, Yetzirah, or Water. This is the highly psychic and emotionally charged world immediately behind the veil of material existence, or Assiah. Also known as the World of Earth, because of the solid, concrete nature of material life.

The purpose of this scheme, is to show that creation occurs in increasingly dense levels of energy-matter, from the most subtle, or Fire, to the most dense, or Earth. Within this context of increasing density, there also arises a series of ten planes or levels of consciousness which combines with energy-matter, known as Sepheroth, or spheres of being. They occur in a pattern of: unity, reflection, polarity, reflection, polarity, unity, reflection, polarity, unity, and finally materialization. This basic idea of unity-polarity-and re-harmonizing, is the basis of kabbalistic and alchemical practices, and is derived from the observation of Nature.

In the mineral realm the dominant energy is that of Earth, a little Water, and very little Air or Fire. In the vegetable realm, the dominant energy is Water and Air, but little Fire and Earth. In the animal realm, the dominant force element is Fire, then Air, but little Earth. These qualities need to be understood as they have been defined for the following information to be of any use to the practicing, or aspiring, Hermeticist. For example, using the above definitions, we can say that the plant realm has an abundance of instinctual energy (Water) and intelligence, i.e. a specific function (Air), but little direct energy (Fire), as this is received passively from the sun; and little hard, physical, matter (Earth).

This original undifferentiated energy from creation is often called in Indian philosophy, and modern occult, and New Age circles, as akasha, or Spirit. However, akasha, consists of two aspects, one active as we have noted, Niter, and the other passive, Salt. The energies of Niter are also referred to as the force of Kundalini, or spiritual forces. In alchemy, this is the Secret Fire. To the Salt, belongs the force of Prana, or Vital Energy. 

This ‘zigzag’ of Creation is called the “Lightning Flash”. The return of energy from dense matter, back through the various stages, Sepherith, and Worlds of Creation is known as the “Path of the Serpent” because of its reverse, or complimentary ‘zigzag’ nature back up this diagram called the Tree of Life.

For the alchemist, somewhere between the third and fourth level, or sphere of creation, energy takes on the characteristic that will allow for the formation of matter at some future state, or level ten. This energy is called Prima Materia, Chaos in the Bible, Spiritus Mundi (Spirit of the Earth), and others. Here, duality is made complete, and genuine polarity exists, as opposed to simple the potential, or idea, of polarity that had existed previously. Energy is divided into active and passive modes, with the active energy constituting the energies of life, and the passive one the energy of matter.

 The effects of the Secret Fire however, and not its re-distributive effects on the Vital Energy, can create the following phenomena:
  • Intense pains suggestive of an illness
  • Crawling sensations of ants or small bugs over the skin, as well as a ‘jumping’ sensation of the energy
  • A feeling of crystal clear calmness and tranquillity, rise from center to center to the top of the head
  • Ascending in the famous ‘zigzag’ or Rising Serpent pattern
  • The energy can skip a center or two
  • The energy can reach the top of the head in a flash of light
  • The character attributes of both positive and negative are exaggerated and sexual power is increased.

The wise shall exercise dominion over the stars. As we correct the astrological imbalances (i.e psychic centers or chakras) within ourselves, astrological conditions outside have less of a negative effect on us. We gain dominion over the ‘stellar’ forces and can “make the sun shine in our oratory when we will it so.

For Zoroaster, holiness meant also abundance, growth, and health. Spenta Mainyu represents the principle of augmentation and development in the universe.

ASTROLOGY:   Just as Orobouros is cosmic energy (the serpent) limiting itself (Saturn), Venus is the creative cosmic force multiplying itself in life (its vegetative nature) as a prism splits the light of the sun. Mercury, like Saturn in many respects, is androgynous, and controls the fire of creation, directing it in the creation of the Philosopher’s Stone. Mercury holds the Caduceus, or winged staff with two serpents intertwined around it. The Wings represent sublimation, the serpents the basic forces of creation. There crossing over is the psychic centers, often given as seven in number, here representing the colors in the spectrum, plus white (Venus). Central to the diagram is Sol, which is the cosmic creative forces which unify, enliven, and harmonize creation, and which we can hope to contact. It is central, and directs and controls all of the other planets, psychic centers, or aspects of Cosmic energy.  

Tantric Leanings: 

The Secret Fire is directly linked to the sexual, (i.e. principle and most basic creative forces) in humanity. Here, the relationship between ‘bliss’ ‘ecstasy’ and the erotic impulse can be clearly seen and experienced. The development of a host of ‘sexual yogas’ and ‘sex magic(k)’ practices bear this out to some degree. However, it is the sexual desire in humanity that acts as its basic drive and evolutionary force. It is also suggests that the ability and need for mystical experiences is biologically rooted. Only be ignoring the most basic of pleasures, sex, can we ignore the drive to ecstatic union on some level. The ‘little death’ or petite morte, is a forerunner of the ‘big death’ as we let go and experience divine oblivion.

Sexual power, linked to our innate drive for mystical experiences, is also linked to human evolution, and some kind of predetermined point or state to which we are being directed.

This is a significant point, in that almost all of modern Western societies psychological illnesses are focused around sexual repression and obsession.

If the Secret Fire flows freely, or with greater strength than before, without the proper purification of the Vital Energy of the physical body, it is possible that it will result in what appears to be extreme physical, but more likely psychological illness in the form of schizophrenia and psychosis; instead of psychic gifts, genius, and either transpersonal states, or simply altered states of consciousness. 

“Listen, then while I make known the Grand Arcanum of this wonder-working Stone, which at the same time is not a stone, which exists in every man, and may be found in its own place at all times…. It is called a stone, not because it is like a stone, but only because by virtue of its fixed nature, it resists the action of fire as successfully as any stone….If we say that its nature is spiritual, it would be no more than the truth; if we describe it as corporeal, the expression would be equally correct; for it is subtle, penetrative, glorified, spiritual gold. It is the noblest of all created things…it is a spirit or quintessence.”

"Abundance is strictly a question of spirit" 
          - Hexagram 55 in The Rave I Ching, Ra Uru Hu


M .A. R

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Empath to Ruler Part II

In plain terms, if they can learn to be more guarded or detached, perhaps even sometimes a little emotionally cold, they will make progress; if not, they will continue to flounder until they learn to muster a tougher brand of objectivity. Here, being a ruler implies learning to rule the fortress of self.

In establishing a firm identity for themselves, they will have to learn to identify and fearlessly express what they really believe and feel, sticking to their guns and refusing to vacillate when challenged. Taking responsibility for one’s own feelings and being honest about them will lead to their learning more straightforward approaches to having their feelings acknowledged or honored. Their background is often such that emotional blackmail or manipulation is second nature to them. Here is a pattern that must be dealt with ruthlessly. They tend to seek out people who will nurture them in a motherly fashion. Often, subconsciously, they mother others out of a feeling that they will be mothered in return. This often leads to disappointment and anger when their own needs are not met.

 Part of their life journey may involve channeling their sensitivity into artistic expression. By redirecting it into a physical form and structuring it via the development of a skill or craft, they may be able to operate in more practical terms. Usually, creativity can be both a method of managing feelings and an eloquent form of expression. Understanding will occur by virtue of the fact that creating art can be an act of detachment and objectivity.

  Ultimately, whether in business, the arts, or service, they are promised great career success. Implicit is a focus on the creation of structure, not just within individuals but also in the outer world. Once they have created a firm strong sense of self and determined what they want, they may be unstoppable. Combining their strong intuitive and psychic ability with their tremendous capacity to get things done, those who evolve successfully are sure to make their mark on the world. Though they may never become so ruthless that they strive to rise to the top of the corporate ladder, their projects will always achieve results. They possess a certain financial astuteness, and they will put this talent to good use—once their judgment is no longer clouded by their emotions.

    The best kinds of people for them to spend time with are other strong­-minded, independent people who will strengthen their ego-building process.

And despite becoming stronger in their sense of self, they will still need to find a special someone to whom they can expose their more sensitive side. Thus, the choice of a partner is crucial and particularly difficult since their discrimination in this area is not good. Tending to be ruled by emotion and, in love, falling back into codependency, they will usually make a few disastrous choices before ultimately finding the right partner. More conscious or evolved friends, those who do not judge or take advantage and who understand the wonderfully broad palette of human psychology, are best for them. Ideally, their friends will point out their excesses and encourage these sensitive people to stand up for themselves.

 ~ M .A. R ~


From Empath to Ruler: My Vessel

//55-39: Moodiness <----> 7:the Alpha\\
Develop a philosophy of life. Know that what you feel one moment may change the next. Create a sense of balance and wholeness within yourself and in your environment. Remember to nourish your soul by giving it what it needs.
The joy of a strong sense of self
 Setting boundaries requires knowing and understanding one’s own wants and needs and not confusing them with those of others. Moreover, a psychic boundary can protect against emotional vampires, those who spread their own energies around while drawing energy from others. Cultivating the ability to know when others are infringing on one’s rights or territory and, more than anything else, to say no, is crucial.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

BrokethaSol: Fixedness

So far out there that no one hears you?
I promise I sort of see you.
I promise I sort my seeing true.
I remember the primitive animal that bites you
in me, that tears the flesh of that soul of yours.
I provoke the higher order in you,
I seduce sacramental conviction in you.
I sometimes forget, that animal in me.
Voracious ferocity that grabs spark and plugs into you
deep and true and lost a'new.
Old archaic blashemous love
of sensory parted and carved into.
I love you
these binary one two types ache with 
each fall of finger punching out
my truth that will change. 
Will fade slow like the gouged monuments I leave
in the corner of that ear and neck of yours.
Sometimes love is the best
kind of love when one rides 
the wave. Taut transitory trysts can transform
sometimes love,
taut from contraction and loosened by
  My sometimes love can wield the monotheistic statique;
the staticity of elasticity,
the frozen wave or the ever balanced wave
of your and my love.
What beauty if it does freeze
and what awesome fear when
one as I is such hedonist of transitoriness
and noncommittal chess-and-checkers
I promise I can sort my seeing of you.
I grip your tendrils and your three or so
hearts and call upon bonding. Bonds of 
promises of my offering.
 Of one two type words,
translinguistic licks of that ear of yours
sometimes love,
and the balance,
and the wave, 
and the infinite,
the infinite wave. 


Thursday, April 4, 2013

A Violet Psychofluid

It is my interpretation that the major quantum mechanical phenomena that we all experience, aside from waking consciousness itself, are dreams and hallucinations. These states, at least in the restricted sense that I am concerned with, occur when the large amounts of various sorts of radiation conveyed into the body via the senses are restricted. Then we see interior images and interior processes that are psychophysical. These processes definitely arise at the quantum mechanical level. It's been shown by John Smythies, Alexander Shulgin, and others that there are quantum mechanical correlates to hallucinogenesis. In other words, if one atom on the molecular ring of an inactive compound is moved, the compound becomes highly active. To me this is a perfect proof of the dynamic linkage at the formative level between quantum mechanically described matter and mind.

Read this universe-shattering article here: http://www.erowid.org/culture/characters/mckenna_terence/mckenna_terence_tryptamines_consciousness.shtml

Rewinding Revelationtiontion

Words are not merely symbols.
Words are body.
Are bodily drives, manifest in wave.

Julia Kristeva:
While the symbolic element gives signification its meaning in the strict sense of reference, the semiotic element gives signification meaning in a broader sense.  That is, the semiotic element makes symbols matter; by discharging drive force in symbols, it makes them significant.  Even though the semiotic challenges meaning in the strict sense, meaning in the terms of the symbolic, it gives symbols their meaning for our lives.  Signification makes our lives meaningful, in both senses of meaning--signifying something and having significance--through its symbolic and semiotic elements. 
 The Bridge: The Drive and the Symbol
The Symbol Driven Up and Out The Mouth and The Symbol Itself
The interdependence of the symbolic and semiotic elements of signification guarantees a relationship between language and life, signification and experience; the interdependence between the symbolic and semiotic guarantees a relationship between body (soma) and soul (psyche).

The tones and rhythms of language, the materiality of language, is bodily.   Kristeva's theory addresses the problem of the relationship between language and bodily experience by postulating that, through the semiotic element, bodily drives manifest themselves in language. 

In stead of lamenting what is lost, absent, or impossible in language, Kristeva marvels at this other realm that makes its way into language.  The force of language is living drive force transferred into language.  Signification is like a transfusion of the living body into language.  This is why psychoanalysis can be effective; the analyst can diagnose the active drive force as it is manifest in the client's language.  Language is not cut off from the body.  And, while, for Kristeva, bodily drives involve a type of violence, negation, or force, this process does not merely necessitate sacrifice and loss.  The drives are not sacrificed to signification; rather bodily drives are an essential semiotic element of signification.

LOVE provides the support for fragmented meanings and fragmented subjectivities.  Love provides the support to reconnect words and affects.  She says that "love is something spoken, and it is only that".  Our lives have meaning for us, we have a sense of ourselves, through the narratives which we prepare to tell others about our experience.  

Even if we do not tell our stories, we live our experience through the stories that we construct in order to "tell ourselves" to another, a loved one.  As we wander through our days, an event takes on its significance in the narrative that we construct for an imaginary conversation with a loved one as we are living it.  The living body is a loving body, and the loving body is a speaking body.  Without love we are nothing but walking corpses.  Love is essential to the living body and it is essential in bringing the living body to life in language. 


Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Unleashed Fractal**``~~~~~~>>>>>

The earth  is shifting frequency from 12:60 machine “time is money” domination to 13:20 spiritual/mental “time is art” evolution.