The 48th Hexagram: The Well

The Well, Becoming Pure:

Like the well, human nature is the same around the world. The passage of time cannot add to its essential dimensions, nor take anything away. Still, just as a well can be deepened to produce clearer, cleaner water, so can we enrich our lives by delving deeply into our essential natures to reach the source of true nourishment.

Beware of shallow thinking; like a little learning, it can be dangerous. The image of the well suggests that going deeper within produces clarity. Be patient, and penetrate both your problems and your own nature to the core. Self-development is key to reaching the deep, clear waters. If you do not lower your bucket to the depths, you’re likely to come up empty.

When greater depth is desired, a lessening of speed is often required.

For me, Marval Rex, that is what I call myself, or a mixture of myself and the other, always... For me, the Well comes at a time where I am ready to be myself. Be true design. I have not a defined Gi or Self energy, but what I mean is to be authentic to my design and to swallowing and illuminating my shadow energies so that they may become Gifts and Siddhis. To being Clear. Thanks Ron Hubbard. 

I want to be good, for myself now. Not so that I may evade punishment, as has been the case before. I wanted to be good for others, for external rewards. Now, through trial and error I have reached awareness that this is not working for me, that I am destined for clarity and Greatness within clarity. 
For myself I wish to be clear waters, good clear waters. No lying or stealing or murky waters where I get lost or disillusioned. I recognize that from within me comes great disillusionment, because it is a lack of awareness of my romantic disposition, my romantic and thought-must-become-deeds design.

My brain can no longer run this holy vessel. It is like a toddler with a loaded gun. Dangerous and powerful, volatile too. My design is so sexy and so powerful, 5th line to boot, and I must ground myself inside my body-- where all of the wisdom sits, waiting. 

I am waiting. I am so magical and good and pure in this waiting state. A sexy sleek car parked in a driveway, I am waiting. Waiting to respond, to turn on, and to wait even when I'm all on and ready to go. To wait even when I am ready to go. To wait even when I am ready. To wait even when. To wait. 

The brain reads off, cackles away the list of fears from the pressures of my open centers. I believe them so often I often feel false for spreading the teachings of human design. Such hypocrisy. But, compassion swoops in from where? My body. My body is compassionate. My vessel says, wait, hold on now, just wait and feel it all out. Ring yourself out to ride the sine wave again dear sweet fool. Powerful innocent fool; heretical martyr. 

So now, when the brain speaks, I am learning to STOP. Stop and breathe through the anxiety that wants to create the compulsion to "thought become deed" its way into a corner where I feel trapped and guilty for listening to the fear. If you blindly follow your fear it will always slither you right into a corner and bait you there. Frustration: the marker of my want to change. 

We get stuck to feel frustration, isolation, depression, isolation again to become unstuck. 

We get stuck to become unstuck. 

I stole and lied to become honest and truthful. 

And I still strive to never be complacent and obedient. 

I will, however, be honest and truthful for myself first, for clarity and respect. 

And then others can drink from my well.

And I will be nourished from within. And from without.

Thank you i Ching, human design, and those who listen. 

MAR

  

Lunar Node Knows

My north and south nodes...the nodes of the moon.
Great insight, and inspirational remembering.


With North Node in Capricorn, our South Node is in Cancer. With North Node in the tenth house, our South Node is in the fourth house.

A tendency to be overly attached to our childhood and past, to be dependent on others and avoid accepting responsibility for our lives, to fear rejection to an extreme thereby missing opportunities, and to be overly focused on emotional problems are some of the issues this position suggests. With this position, we need to take charge of our lives and accept responsibility for our actions. We may too easily blame our past or focus on our insecurities and emotional difficulties instead of moving forward and learning to depend on ourselves. We want to feel secure more than anything, but security can only come once we let go of our dependencies and carve out a life that reflects a true feeling of responsibility to ourselves as well as to others. We are more aware of our emotions than most people, but in order to grow, we must learn to strike a balance between sensitivity and responsibility. We cannot use our sensitivity as a crutch, although we may spend the first half of our life trying to do so! Recognition will come, at some point in our journey, that clinging to the comforts of childhood will in fact hold us back from achieving a comfortable future! By defining solid goals and a mature direction in our lives, as well as letting go of some of our over-attachment to our childhood, we will be able to achieve the financial and emotional security that we so crave.

Find out yours at http://www.cafeastrology.com/nodesofthemoon.html

LOVE,

VMARV

Dreams 2/12/14

I must be having these dreams. The experience of the male hand thrust down upon me. There is the anger, the elimination of anything just; the profound beauty is in my seeking for balance. And in the way the masculine both seduces me and tempts me to be at its side, I am in rage as to its condition here and now, I am enraged by the sexy suspension that I am here in this body to mutate. Once was never the same for me. I am a rainbowarrior, and I am embodied to redefine the notion of masculine and-or feminine. The brain is rendered useless, as my existence and fractal path are evidence that the mutation is not a doing, but a being. I am by my very nature a mutant…and yet the irony lies in the truth that I am only deemed mutant by comparison…that those who I am mutating from are themselves mutants of yore.  Alas, here I am, having dreams of men coming down upon me, waving the small flaccid authority that appears as snake but is not deadly, rather slowly poisoning. And yet, forgive them, for they know not what they do.

Desire. Desirousness. The dynamic which all bagged flash cannot escape. The dynamic. The irrefutable web of energy that holds us in like the catchings of striking arachnids. 

The mutation begins slowly. Go slowly. To me.

The mutation begins slowly. It begins with trials, hardships, a few paint dribblings. You as a mutant have to be normal enough or feign normal enough to not push the boundary and find yourself in death. Therefore, the war rages on inside of you, the death that would have come from outside of you if not for your prime feigning is now an ultimate death inside the viscera. The growing void is the worst kind of pain, the sensation that is beyond sensation, it is the rotting of death hidden inside life.  

The fecundity though! The obsidian soils that permeate the young rainbowarrior’s saddened state, the state that refuses pity all at once but not honestly! The dejected and elusively desperate response that the inside death elicits. All one wants to do is hide, after the long day of work in this standardized state. Easy and standardized and life consuming…. The death of the walking is.

But alas, it is through one’s prime gift, their all seeing eye, their very own looking glass, that one may begin to see all there is to See! And the seeing is movement! The seeing is just a cerebral and visceral cataloging of a change made of Mysterious strength, of abundance. And the movement is the freedoming we many are seeking. And underneath this seeking, holding this seeking up, there is much work to be done. There is much work to be done.

To come home to our selves, our gifts, our siddhis, and to love one another, love another… and recognize that our love for another, for others, is our love for ourmanyselves.

Mutants and the Mechanism

This is what life is built on. 

The whole mechanism

 is built logically, 

and the life,

 lived abstractly.

And then, of course, is the real problem for the collective: It‘s individuality, pure
mutation. Pure mutation operates in a pulse. So we have the cyclical (abstract processes), we have the
fixed patterns (logical processes), and we have the pulse of the individual: it‘s there and it‘s not; it‘s there and it's not.

Now, of course,
the mutation doesn't have to be some kind of grand mutation. That mutation taking
hold is what, within individuality, we call knowing. And the thing to recognize about
knowing is that knowing has an existential appearance. In other words, it literally
comes out of nowhere

It‘s a brake that holds that aspect back from functioning correctly,
because it cannot function, it cannot operate correctly until it KNOWS. Otherwise, it is
uncertain. For somebody like me who is an individual and a knower, in my ordinary
life I say, ―I don't know‖ much more often than I say ―I know. Because this ―I don't
know, is simply that there is no direction.

Because the moment you enter into something correctly,
the knowing is inherent in the system.

In other words, it is correct action, and
through the continuity of the vehicle and the way in which we operate holistically,
this is a healthy and correct thing to do and you're not going to have this dilemma.
But, it becomes so uncomfortable for the not-self that carries individuality, always
pretending that they have made up their mind. This is what happens to individuals.
Individuals become pretend-collective. They pretend that they‘ve actually worked it
out as pattern, or they look back into their own experience. But this has nothing to
do with knowing.

.LOVE.

Intention and Happenstance

Channel 30-41 is the Channel of Recognition through which we discern the potential experiences that are offered to us, and feel within ourselves how much we are drawn to a particular experience and how much attention and intention we are going to commit to it, or not.

        There are two ways to enter into any experience, the one, where you are not sure if having the experience is a good idea, and question what everyone might say about you if you do it, so even if you do undertake the experience, your approach is half-hearted at best, and you never derive a sense of completion or fulfillment from what happens. The other way to enter an experience is with totality; you weigh up your feelings and come to a point of emotional clarity, then make a jump, a quantum leap into the experience. Whatever happens within the experience, you come out of it with a sense of completion that opens you to all forms of new experiences with an added confidence.


Pressure Baby, Pressure Pressure. 

Put gold stars on 16-22 July, and keep in mind that you will have all of June, July until early August to take advantage of the poetic aspects at play in the universe. They will link your houses of international travel, publishing, broadcasting, academia and legal matters (where Saturn is based), to your house of creativity and artistic expression and romance (where Jupiter is based). The last leg of this dazzling triangle will be in your first house of personality (where Neptune is currently based in Pisces) and this proves the power of your determination and drive will allow you to direct this energy in any way you please.  




 

My Open Head Love

Welcome to Human Design. Per Human Design, we are all “lit up”
by neutrinos. Whether they are solar, terra or cosmic neutrinos,
we do not know. Neither do we know whether they are electron,
tau or muon neutrinos that light us up. One fact is that Human
Design popped up after the Supernova1987A in 1987. 

This Supernova caused an influx of neutrinos to rain onto Earth.

Now, take a light bulb, look for the filaments …screw in the bulb,
turn on the light and the filament lights up. See how much of the
room lights up. Now, imagine a person’s body with 64 filaments,
4 of which can combine to a total of 10 combinations (Spectrum of Individuation). Plug this body into the cosmos socket and this person lights up with a personality, thoughts, strengths, fears, knowledge, weaknesses and energy field.  

Light does not go through matter, neutrinos do. About 100 billion
solar neutrinos can go through 2 centimeters of one finger every
second.  

Neutrinos Interpreted

Multiply this by the surface area of your body and the total is
gazillionsof neutrinos go through our body.  And we are not even
aware.

If neutrinos light us up and gazillion neutrinos go through our bodies per second, and we do not all light up the same way, one can then assume that we have certain receptors to catch these neutrinos within our bodies to make who we are. What these receptors are, we cannot answer either. We do know that once we look at someone’s Human Design we continue to be amazed at the make up of each person: we can truly say that each person is a beautiful and individual being in their own way, a piece of the puzzle of humanity.

Vivre

Live well. It is the greatest revenge.

The Talmud 

 

Late, May I Transitionall?

"Between now and early August you are likely to have your eyes opened to many things in your life that, looking back, you’ll realise you were inexplicably unaware of.  The truth of who we are and how we live will seem like a different country by then.  And in the meantime, we are asked to look beyond the limitations facing us to find what Saturn, the archetypal teacher, is asking us to attend to.

There will be a revelation, some great personal and collective gifts, and a new sense of purpose for us to uncover.

When we perceive opposition we are really seeing diversity, a beautifully spun fractal of light in all it’s infinite colours.  Rather than fighting it, or trying to control it, we can simply appreciate it’s difference and carry on with our own lives. Our diversity will carry us in different directions, as indeed it’s meant to do.  We are not all meant to be standing together as one, looking in the same direction and holding hands.  Each one of us has our unique take on life, our unique offering and path.

Pluto is an extremely concentrated power, sub-atomic and hidden within the most innocuous things.  He brings to the surface material that needs to be eliminated from our lives. Releasing the unconscious fear of death, limitation and opposition is opening us up to a new creative energy that will change life on this planet.  We are already seeing the first waves of this potent force.

Although it sounds like a bad thing, this is the point in our lives where creativity arises.  This place of fear.  But in our death-denying culture we’ve been taught to reflexively reach for packaged solutions rather than go within.  This immense creative power is not yet in our own hands.  This transit is likely to change that.



The Root Centre brings pressure into our lives – the pressure to take action, to re-act.   What might arise from the depths of your being if you chose instead to hold to your your own timing and awaited your own inner response, allowed a more conscious knowing of the situation?  This is our challenge, to be open to the power of what arises when we resist the ingrained pressure to react to fear without first knowing what it truly represents in our lives. "

http://www.loveyourdesign.com/owning-the-power-of-our-fear/




LOVE//

M .A. R

The Womb You Create

Caring is the invincible Shield

The Weapon of the Sky

tao te ching 67

Serpentile Sheddings

What is really interesting is that these abilities will strengthen and new ones reveal themselves as the Indigo ages. Many Indigo psychic abilities are ‘locked away’ until the individual reaches a certain age- usually around age 28 or 29. This is a built-in ‘safety feature’ because the mental maturity to handle these gifts isn’t really complete until the late twenties or early thirties. All Indigos will have an Dark Night/Awakening experience around this time. This coincides with their Saturn’s Return, where their True Mission manifests itself, and they have had enough time and experience as adults to try, test, fine-tune and learn to trust their innate psychic and intuitive abilities. Younger Indigos may be aware of their mission from childhood, but until this period of their life, they may have difficulty staying on course because of their innate curiosity and love of experiment and exploration. The return to the inner mission can be rough. The apparent lateness of this ‘bloom’ or Awakening is due to the longer lifespan of surviving Indigos, but this period is experienced by all people, Indigo or not. Even the early Alpha and Beta generations will live considerably longer than their peers, and will exhibit a youthful appearance well into middle age.

The thirties are a decade of rediscovery and recovery of the extremely high-end psychic abilities, like instant access to the Akashic realms, real time remote viewing, Clear channeling and interaction with inner Guidance, instant assessment of people’s thoughts and intent, deliberate synchronicity (sheer ‘dumb’ luck) simultaneous time-hopping (paralleling) and other intriguing Gifts. The healing gifts uncover themselves in the third decade also. These youngsters will grow up to become formidable healers, should they choose to fine-tune this particular gift. Most of the thirties will be spent discovering and fine tuning these spiritual Gifts. The fun really begins in the early forties, and the high power aspects of the mature Indigo begin to emerge. So, if your kid seems to be brilliant, but scattered slacker, or turns his or her nose up at traditional education and career opportunities, take heart- the mature inner core soul knows how to bide its time, and will do so, although it might be frustrating for you at times. Remember- it is their life, and they chose to return. You were their guardian and teacher.

Love


You


//MAR

The Flaming Eyes Flutter

Time and space and consciousness and material form are all a single fluid mechanics in Human Design. In that clockwork flow, measured by the stars and solar system in an ocean of both photons and neutrinos, evolution happens when the earth orbit reaches a precise position in space and time. Evolution randomly mutates to specific deadlines! And late in March 2027...In March 2027...phoenixes. Phoenixes.

"This new awareness cannot operate until the cosmic clock is ready for it. It is there in mythology – the Age of Aquarius, the New Age, The Matrix, X-Men, Harry Potter, Vanilla Sky, we are talking about a disintegration of reality as we know it, and autistic people do not care for our reality because we experience a world of love and connection externally to their bodies. Autism is love, ask my wife, my children, but it is not competence in human terms except in the absurd crap that passes for academic stupor. A new form of INTELLIGENCE gives Rain Man, and me, some abilities that we presume are neo-cortex, because we only know of that."

At times the founder of HD, Ra Uru Hu, has implied even our domestic and industrial garbage is some art form that will nourish some future form of life, and he is very clear that all art is excrement. My reply is that we appear to all be dung beetles!

 

In my latest thread "Reconciling God and Science" in the Spirituality forum I coincidentally touched on the indole molecule in the company of the peptides found in the gut. Indole is a product of putrefaction and also the molecular nucleus for certain hallucinogenic compounds: the Lysergines (LSD); Ibogaine; Dimethyltryptamine (DMT); Psilocybin etc., not to mention the purple dye Tyrian Purple. The peptides found in the gut are essentially the same as the neuropeptides found in the brain.

Tyrian purple. And "Bunk" DNA

Quote of this Moment: Messenger

Integration is a lives-long process that involves the discernment, analysis, then synthesis of the inevitably accumulated experience of interaction between You and the Other.

Love.
MAR..

Differentiation is All the Same Really

"You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at and exploring itself."

Alan Watts

<+The Heart Girl with a Serpent Is My Name+>

the Serpent doesn’t really sleep, it is we who are asleep to its presence and potential blessing

Alchemy can be seen as a sort of depth psychology. Alchemical symbols function as archetypes and exist within every human being, and that alchemy can have the key to unlocking an understanding of the innermost and unconscious part of the psyche, which is supposed to be the main part of our being (using the analogy with the iceberg, 90% of which is hidden under the sea).


From a 19th C. Alchemical Text

 The mundane Nature-Spirit: (1) pours itself into the Central-Fire of
the earth, (2) starts working in that fire, (3) is bound in mercurial
moisture and liquid form, (4) is impelled to and fro, through the
Archaeum of the Earth, as a saturated wind, (5) is congealed by
Saturn, and (6) is thrown to the ground in front of the Alchemist,
like the true metallic gore (the metal's seed).
The Alchemist: (1) recognizes this as the most valuable treasure on
earth, (2) takes it home joyfully, (3) inserts it into the glass
coffin, (4) binds it with the gaseous Mercury, (5) seals the coffin,
(6) watches the black Raven grow in the putrefaction, (7) is reborn
in the Paradisiacal Kingdom to corporal Diana, and (8) is crowned as
the  Child  of  the  Sun.

"The Human Design System is a reading of your genetic code. The star fields create your shape as you grow and are then born. This shape indicates your essential truths. These essential truths are simple because they are mechanical. What is mechanical in us, the way in which our genes operate, is that the moment we try to interfere with their operation we descend into a life of confusion, chaos, and pain. In the end, they will have their way.We are passengers in these bodies. We are passenger consciousness experiencing the life. Buddha taught that the body is not yours. It is not. Yet at the same time, we are totally dependent on it. That is the tragedy of a sick body. We are totally dependent on our vehicles. To learn how to operate them properly, and it is really to learn how to allow them to operate properly, immediately brings benefits. This is not complex and it will not be in complex language. It is very straightforward and very logical. It is accessible to anyone of any age. Anyone can have access to this knowledge. This is not simply about saying, "Aha, I'm this or that". It is about having the opportunity to do something with knowledge; to be able to act on it. In acting on it, in experimenting with its logic, a remarkable experience of finding and ultimately living one's true life can occur.

All learning, real learning, takes seven years. It takes seven years to change approximately all of the cells in the body. We live in a seven year cycle. The moment that you begin to come to your own nature, the moment that you allow your body to live its life without resistance, you begin a deep process of deconditioning. Seven years later, you emerge, quite literally, as a new being: yourself. It's one of the great jokes that human beings don't get to live out their own lives. It is because of that, that they don't get to live out their own lives; that life seems to be such a difficult experience for them. We know that there is a lot of stuff around about being yourself. It is all fine and good for somebody to stand up and tell you to be yourself, but you have to know who that self is.

Life is a duality. It is revealed through our moralities. There is always going to be this and that. There is always going to be the good and the bad. There is always going to be success and there is always going to be failure. It is the nature of what it is to be human and to live out the spectrum of human experience. " -Ra Uru Hu

64 Codons of the DNA Genetic Code

64 Hexagrams of the I Ching

The basis of kabbalah is that through increasing levels of density, humanity came into its present state of physical incarnation and psychic evolution. Through rituals, exercises, and meditations, the energy latent in creation generally, and the body of the practitioner in particular, can be “awakened”, purified, and directed. This energy can then be used for spiritual development, psychic expansion, or physical health and improvement.

the FOUR elements: 
The Divine mind of God, the Absolute, or in Hebrew the Ain Soph Aur (Limitless Light), through a series of expansions and contractions establishes the boundaries of Creation. The first world is the most subtle, and closest to the original state of non-existence, and is Atzilooth. This is called the world of Fire, because of the lively, undefined, and almost uncontrollable nature of fire. Next is Briah, or the World of Archetypes and forms as our human mind can grasp them. It is symbolized as the World of Air, and is the result as a barrier world that is formed by the creation of the next World, Yetzirah, or Water. This is the highly psychic and emotionally charged world immediately behind the veil of material existence, or Assiah. Also known as the World of Earth, because of the solid, concrete nature of material life.

The purpose of this scheme, is to show that creation occurs in increasingly dense levels of energy-matter, from the most subtle, or Fire, to the most dense, or Earth. Within this context of increasing density, there also arises a series of ten planes or levels of consciousness which combines with energy-matter, known as Sepheroth, or spheres of being. They occur in a pattern of: unity, reflection, polarity, reflection, polarity, unity, reflection, polarity, unity, and finally materialization. This basic idea of unity-polarity-and re-harmonizing, is the basis of kabbalistic and alchemical practices, and is derived from the observation of Nature.

In the mineral realm the dominant energy is that of Earth, a little Water, and very little Air or Fire. In the vegetable realm, the dominant energy is Water and Air, but little Fire and Earth. In the animal realm, the dominant force element is Fire, then Air, but little Earth. These qualities need to be understood as they have been defined for the following information to be of any use to the practicing, or aspiring, Hermeticist. For example, using the above definitions, we can say that the plant realm has an abundance of instinctual energy (Water) and intelligence, i.e. a specific function (Air), but little direct energy (Fire), as this is received passively from the sun; and little hard, physical, matter (Earth).

This original undifferentiated energy from creation is often called in Indian philosophy, and modern occult, and New Age circles, as akasha, or Spirit. However, akasha, consists of two aspects, one active as we have noted, Niter, and the other passive, Salt. The energies of Niter are also referred to as the force of Kundalini, or spiritual forces. In alchemy, this is the Secret Fire. To the Salt, belongs the force of Prana, or Vital Energy. 

This ‘zigzag’ of Creation is called the “Lightning Flash”. The return of energy from dense matter, back through the various stages, Sepherith, and Worlds of Creation is known as the “Path of the Serpent” because of its reverse, or complimentary ‘zigzag’ nature back up this diagram called the Tree of Life.

For the alchemist, somewhere between the third and fourth level, or sphere of creation, energy takes on the characteristic that will allow for the formation of matter at some future state, or level ten. This energy is called Prima Materia, Chaos in the Bible, Spiritus Mundi (Spirit of the Earth), and others. Here, duality is made complete, and genuine polarity exists, as opposed to simple the potential, or idea, of polarity that had existed previously. Energy is divided into active and passive modes, with the active energy constituting the energies of life, and the passive one the energy of matter.

 The effects of the Secret Fire however, and not its re-distributive effects on the Vital Energy, can create the following phenomena:

• Intense pains suggestive of an illness
• Crawling sensations of ants or small bugs over the skin, as well as a ‘jumping’ sensation of the energy
• A feeling of crystal clear calmness and tranquillity, rise from center to center to the top of the head
• Ascending in the famous ‘zigzag’ or Rising Serpent pattern
• The energy can skip a center or two
• The energy can reach the top of the head in a flash of light
• The character attributes of both positive and negative are exaggerated and sexual power is increased.

The wise shall exercise dominion over the stars. As we correct the astrological imbalances (i.e psychic centers or chakras) within ourselves, astrological conditions outside have less of a negative effect on us. We gain dominion over the ‘stellar’ forces and can “make the sun shine in our oratory when we will it so.

For Zoroaster, holiness meant also abundance, growth, and health. Spenta Mainyu represents the principle of augmentation and development in the universe.

ASTROLOGY:   Just as Orobouros is cosmic energy (the serpent) limiting itself (Saturn), Venus is the creative cosmic force multiplying itself in life (its vegetative nature) as a prism splits the light of the sun. Mercury, like Saturn in many respects, is androgynous, and controls the fire of creation, directing it in the creation of the Philosopher’s Stone. Mercury holds the Caduceus, or winged staff with two serpents intertwined around it. The Wings represent sublimation, the serpents the basic forces of creation. There crossing over is the psychic centers, often given as seven in number, here representing the colors in the spectrum, plus white (Venus). Central to the diagram is Sol, which is the cosmic creative forces which unify, enliven, and harmonize creation, and which we can hope to contact. It is central, and directs and controls all of the other planets, psychic centers, or aspects of Cosmic energy.  

Tantric Leanings: 

The Secret Fire is directly linked to the sexual, (i.e. principle and most basic creative forces) in humanity. Here, the relationship between ‘bliss’ ‘ecstasy’ and the erotic impulse can be clearly seen and experienced. The development of a host of ‘sexual yogas’ and ‘sex magic(k)’ practices bear this out to some degree. However, it is the sexual desire in humanity that acts as its basic drive and evolutionary force. It is also suggests that the ability and need for mystical experiences is biologically rooted. Only be ignoring the most basic of pleasures, sex, can we ignore the drive to ecstatic union on some level. The ‘little death’ or petite morte, is a forerunner of the ‘big death’ as we let go and experience divine oblivion.

Sexual power, linked to our innate drive for mystical experiences, is also linked to human evolution, and some kind of predetermined point or state to which we are being directed.

This is a significant point, in that almost all of modern Western societies psychological illnesses are focused around sexual repression and obsession.

If the Secret Fire flows freely, or with greater strength than before, without the proper purification of the Vital Energy of the physical body, it is possible that it will result in what appears to be extreme physical, but more likely psychological illness in the form of schizophrenia and psychosis; instead of psychic gifts, genius, and either transpersonal states, or simply altered states of consciousness. 

“Listen, then while I make known the Grand Arcanum of this wonder-working Stone, which at the same time is not a stone, which exists in every man, and may be found in its own place at all times…. It is called a stone, not because it is like a stone, but only because by virtue of its fixed nature, it resists the action of fire as successfully as any stone….If we say that its nature is spiritual, it would be no more than the truth; if we describe it as corporeal, the expression would be equally correct; for it is subtle, penetrative, glorified, spiritual gold. It is the noblest of all created things…it is a spirit or quintessence.”

"Abundance is strictly a question of spirit" 

          - Hexagram 55 in The Rave I Ching, Ra Uru Hu

Love,

M .A. R

Empath to Ruler Part II

In plain terms, if they can learn to be more guarded or detached, perhaps even sometimes a little emotionally cold, they will make progress; if not, they will continue to flounder until they learn to muster a tougher brand of objectivity. Here, being a ruler implies learning to rule the fortress of self.

In establishing a firm identity for themselves, they will have to learn to identify and fearlessly express what they really believe and feel, sticking to their guns and refusing to vacillate when challenged. Taking responsibility for one’s own feelings and being honest about them will lead to their learning more straightforward approaches to having their feelings acknowledged or honored. Their background is often such that emotional blackmail or manipulation is second nature to them. Here is a pattern that must be dealt with ruthlessly. They tend to seek out people who will nurture them in a motherly fashion. Often, subconsciously, they mother others out of a feeling that they will be mothered in return. This often leads to disappointment and anger when their own needs are not met.

 Part of their life journey may involve channeling their sensitivity into artistic expression. By redirecting it into a physical form and structuring it via the development of a skill or craft, they may be able to operate in more practical terms. Usually, creativity can be both a method of managing feelings and an eloquent form of expression. Understanding will occur by virtue of the fact that creating art can be an act of detachment and objectivity.


  Ultimately, whether in business, the arts, or service, they are promised great career success. Implicit is a focus on the creation of structure, not just within individuals but also in the outer world. Once they have created a firm strong sense of self and determined what they want, they may be unstoppable. Combining their strong intuitive and psychic ability with their tremendous capacity to get things done, those who evolve successfully are sure to make their mark on the world. Though they may never become so ruthless that they strive to rise to the top of the corporate ladder, their projects will always achieve results. They possess a certain financial astuteness, and they will put this talent to good use—once their judgment is no longer clouded by their emotions.

    The best kinds of people for them to spend time with are other strong­-minded, independent people who will strengthen their ego-building process.

And despite becoming stronger in their sense of self, they will still need to find a special someone to whom they can expose their more sensitive side. Thus, the choice of a partner is crucial and particularly difficult since their discrimination in this area is not good. Tending to be ruled by emotion and, in love, falling back into codependency, they will usually make a few disastrous choices before ultimately finding the right partner. More conscious or evolved friends, those who do not judge or take advantage and who understand the wonderfully broad palette of human psychology, are best for them. Ideally, their friends will point out their excesses and encourage these sensitive people to stand up for themselves.

FROM EMPATH TO RULER
 ~ M .A. R ~

www.thesecretlanguageofbirthdays.com

From Empath to Ruler: My Vessel

//55-39: Moodiness <----> 7:the Alpha\\

Suggestion:

Develop a philosophy of life. Know that what you feel one moment may change the next. Create a sense of balance and wholeness within yourself and in your environment. Remember to nourish your soul by giving it what it needs.

Reward:

The joy of a strong sense of self

 Setting boundaries requires knowing and understanding one’s own wants and needs and not confusing them with those of others. Moreover, a psychic boundary can protect against emotional vampires, those who spread their own energies around while drawing energy from others. Cultivating the ability to know when others are infringing on one’s rights or territory and, more than anything else, to say no, is crucial.

BrokethaSol: Fixedness

 

So far out there that no one hears you?

I promise I sort of see you.

I promise I sort my seeing true.

I remember the primitive animal that bites you

in me, that tears the flesh of that soul of yours.

I provoke the higher order in you,

I seduce sacramental conviction in you.

I sometimes forget, that animal in me.

Voracious ferocity that grabs spark and plugs into you

deep and true and lost a'new.

Old archaic blashemous love

of sensory parted and carved into.

I love you

these binary one two types ache with 

each fall of finger punching out

my truth that will change. 

Will fade slow like the gouged monuments I leave

in the corner of that ear and neck of yours.

Sometimes love is the best

kind of love when one rides 

the wave. Taut transitory trysts can transform

sometimes love,

taut from contraction and loosened by

expansion.  

  My sometimes love can wield the monotheistic statique;

the staticity of elasticity,

the frozen wave or the ever balanced wave

of your and my love.

What beauty if it does freeze

and what awesome fear when

one as I is such hedonist of transitoriness

and noncommittal chess-and-checkers

loving.

I promise I can sort my seeing of you.

I grip your tendrils and your three or so

hearts and call upon bonding. Bonds of 

promises of my offering.

 Of one two type words,

translinguistic licks of that ear of yours

sometimes love,

and the balance,

and the wave, 

and the infinite,

the infinite wave. 

Siempre.

Sometimes.

Siempre.

Rewinding Revelationtiontion

Words are not merely symbols.

Words are body.

Are bodily drives, manifest in wave.

Julia Kristeva:

While the symbolic element gives signification its meaning in the strict sense of reference, the semiotic element gives signification meaning in a broader sense.  That is, the semiotic element makes symbols matter; by discharging drive force in symbols, it makes them significant.  Even though the semiotic challenges meaning in the strict sense, meaning in the terms of the symbolic, it gives symbols their meaning for our lives.  Signification makes our lives meaningful, in both senses of meaning--signifying something and having significance--through its symbolic and semiotic elements. 

 The Bridge: The Drive and the Symbol

The Symbol Driven Up and Out The Mouth and The Symbol Itself

The interdependence of the symbolic and semiotic elements of signification guarantees a relationship between language and life, signification and experience; the interdependence between the symbolic and semiotic guarantees a relationship between body (soma) and soul (psyche).

The tones and rhythms of language, the materiality of language, is bodily.   Kristeva's theory addresses the problem of the relationship between language and bodily experience by postulating that, through the semiotic element, bodily drives manifest themselves in language. 

In stead of lamenting what is lost, absent, or impossible in language, Kristeva marvels at this other realm that makes its way into language.  The force of language is living drive force transferred into language.  Signification is like a transfusion of the living body into language.  This is why psychoanalysis can be effective; the analyst can diagnose the active drive force as it is manifest in the client's language.  Language is not cut off from the body.  And, while, for Kristeva, bodily drives involve a type of violence, negation, or force, this process does not merely necessitate sacrifice and loss.  The drives are not sacrificed to signification; rather bodily drives are an essential semiotic element of signification.

LOVE provides the support for fragmented meanings and fragmented subjectivities.  Love provides the support to reconnect words and affects.  She says that "love is something spoken, and it is only that".  Our lives have meaning for us, we have a sense of ourselves, through the narratives which we prepare to tell others about our experience.  

Even if we do not tell our stories, we live our experience through the stories that we construct in order to "tell ourselves" to another, a loved one.  As we wander through our days, an event takes on its significance in the narrative that we construct for an imaginary conversation with a loved one as we are living it.  The living body is a loving body, and the loving body is a speaking body.  Without love we are nothing but walking corpses.  Love is essential to the living body and it is essential in bringing the living body to life in language. 

//M.A.R**

Beach Blanket Babylon

Wrote this after perusing//drowning-in the MoMA in San Fran-cisc-o

:

Spirit is not an idea. Or an instinct. It is an emotion. The full breadth, where in that journey through breath there carves the space for stillness. Thick stillness that is rife with spirit, more so than the crest and crash of the emotional sound. Thick stillness that gouges open a tipping point. Upon this point is the deepest sorrow and the most excruciating bliss, the apex of all joy felt now, then, and when. And in the eyes-like-paradoxes that lull in this still point, waiting for change, there is the numbness of what is beyond the infinite spectrum. The numbness that is from too much, that comes from too much.

Individuation: The Individed Individual

The whole magic of what individuality is all about is that you are invited to respond to life, to be yourself, to not interfere. If you touch the heart of any individual and ask them what they really care about philosophically, they will tell you: non-interference so they can be themselves.

Today I looked at my individual circuitry. I looked at the Individualist aspect(s) of myself. An individual loves this, a third line being loves this. I love to look at myself. I love to Contemplate, to Contemplate thus: What I Struggle for in the Now.

Except there is a missing link, there is an energy that I was not born with, and this is a fixed sense of self. Which means WHO I struggle (ie. ambitiously work) for is mutative, is changing. Because WHO I am is mutable, is consistently changing...via planetary transits and the aura of the Other.
WHO I struggle for is often not me, is often the struggle of an Other. And I take it on, and try to manifest mystical union, all sexy like Jimmy-and-the-Doors, and I often succeed and often fail. Trial and Error baby.

And I wonder, I contemplate WHO I am, and it can highly frustrate me. Because it is built to mutation; my self is built to mutate. Now, not everyone's Self energy is built for mutation...

and thus the puzzle piece human life comes into play. Fun like play. Fun. Hilarious, and, of course, gravely serious. Yang attracting Yin, searching for wholeness...rigidity meeting fluidity. Fixed selves and mutable selves. Glorious energy synergisms.

Totality, I see totality. Even in my open, yin, sense of Self. I see all totality, aha! I see it because it is an illusion of separateness, individuality is an illusion of separateness.
But it is also glorious and necessary and a suspension for Oneness. It creates the bridge between I and the Other. And without it, I could never see Oneness...because I could never I.


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And I sometimes stand on the beach and I often float in the ocean.
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Perfect paradoxes performing passionate pleasures and pains. 

  
 Love,

M.a.R