Feeling It

"Richard Tarnas, for example, sees this time as

 one where humans are growing out of a 

spiritual adolescence (matriarchy and 

patriarchy) and into a more mature and 

direct relationship with their own 

divinity 

and 

creative capacities."

The 48th Hexagram: The Well

The Well, Becoming Pure:

Like the well, human nature is the same around the world. The passage of time cannot add to its essential dimensions, nor take anything away. Still, just as a well can be deepened to produce clearer, cleaner water, so can we enrich our lives by delving deeply into our essential natures to reach the source of true nourishment.

Beware of shallow thinking; like a little learning, it can be dangerous. The image of the well suggests that going deeper within produces clarity. Be patient, and penetrate both your problems and your own nature to the core. Self-development is key to reaching the deep, clear waters. If you do not lower your bucket to the depths, you’re likely to come up empty.

When greater depth is desired, a lessening of speed is often required.

For me, Marval Rex, that is what I call myself, or a mixture of myself and the other, always... For me, the Well comes at a time where I am ready to be myself. Be true design. I have not a defined Gi or Self energy, but what I mean is to be authentic to my design and to swallowing and illuminating my shadow energies so that they may become Gifts and Siddhis. To being Clear. Thanks Ron Hubbard. 

I want to be good, for myself now. Not so that I may evade punishment, as has been the case before. I wanted to be good for others, for external rewards. Now, through trial and error I have reached awareness that this is not working for me, that I am destined for clarity and Greatness within clarity. 
For myself I wish to be clear waters, good clear waters. No lying or stealing or murky waters where I get lost or disillusioned. I recognize that from within me comes great disillusionment, because it is a lack of awareness of my romantic disposition, my romantic and thought-must-become-deeds design.

My brain can no longer run this holy vessel. It is like a toddler with a loaded gun. Dangerous and powerful, volatile too. My design is so sexy and so powerful, 5th line to boot, and I must ground myself inside my body-- where all of the wisdom sits, waiting. 

I am waiting. I am so magical and good and pure in this waiting state. A sexy sleek car parked in a driveway, I am waiting. Waiting to respond, to turn on, and to wait even when I'm all on and ready to go. To wait even when I am ready to go. To wait even when I am ready. To wait even when. To wait. 

The brain reads off, cackles away the list of fears from the pressures of my open centers. I believe them so often I often feel false for spreading the teachings of human design. Such hypocrisy. But, compassion swoops in from where? My body. My body is compassionate. My vessel says, wait, hold on now, just wait and feel it all out. Ring yourself out to ride the sine wave again dear sweet fool. Powerful innocent fool; heretical martyr. 

So now, when the brain speaks, I am learning to STOP. Stop and breathe through the anxiety that wants to create the compulsion to "thought become deed" its way into a corner where I feel trapped and guilty for listening to the fear. If you blindly follow your fear it will always slither you right into a corner and bait you there. Frustration: the marker of my want to change. 

We get stuck to feel frustration, isolation, depression, isolation again to become unstuck. 

We get stuck to become unstuck. 

I stole and lied to become honest and truthful. 

And I still strive to never be complacent and obedient. 

I will, however, be honest and truthful for myself first, for clarity and respect. 

And then others can drink from my well.

And I will be nourished from within. And from without.

Thank you i Ching, human design, and those who listen. 

MAR

  

We are All, All, and All Alone!

We all have 64 gates and 9 centers, the lack of definition is where we are open.

.truth.

And the Neux nUEX Comes...

"The Gene Keys are a genetic mapping system that delineates each of the sixty-four DNA codons as a pathway to enlightenment. The work is based on the hexagrams of the I Ching, and informed by a fat dose of Human Design..."

The goal of the Gene Keys is first to deprogram your DNA of all its low frequency patterns (the Shadows), then reprogram your cells with the higher frequency patterns of your genius (the Gifts and the Siddhis).

                                                                         Go to: http://www.genekeys.com/

                        http://realitysandwich.com/219889/gene-keys-epiphany-weekend/

<3//MAR

Integral Human Design: some notes

 Notes for a certain Sleeping Phoenix:



3 / 5 The way of Rebellion - Flexibility based on Adaptness / Realistic Attainment based on Clarity

55 / 39 Romance - Use of obstruction as opportunity for the release of emotional abundance;

                              in the stream of: Creativity

For humanity, the ESSENCE of Emotion supports us in feeling and developing serenity, empathy and compassion.

In your case, the field of Emotion is clearly defined by at least one of your specializations. You experience yourself and others through the filter of your specific emotional awareness, and you have a particular way of moving through your emotions.

Your STRENGTH here lies in the depth and breadth of your own emotional landscape, which enables you to experience and understand

(over a period of time) your own multi-faceted emotional nature, as well as the deep complexities of other beings and things.

With regard to Emotion, your LEARNING CHALLENGE is to responsibly deal with the fullness, intensity and depth of your own emotional life. One of your greatest life lessons is to accept the fact that it takes time for emotional turbulence to subside, and for a clear, unobstructed view to return.

STRESS FACTORS: i.e. being pressured to make a decision, a lack of space/time/contact for processing emotions, an accumulation of emotional triggers. 

POSSIBLE STRESS SYMPTOMS: decision-making paralysis, incessant emotional turbulence, excessive perspiration, emotional overcharge -- potentially showing up in the form of helplessness, violence, aggression, and/or a need for over-justification.

Wisdom of Trajectories

7 centered pain
is the pain of being numb, of stoicism, the pain of being a sheep, the pain of being competitive, the pain that comes from how mental decision making meets resistance. . .

9 centered pain
is the pain of waking up, like when you get pins and needles as the circulation comes back.
It's also the sweet pain of connecting with how it hurts to not love your uniqueness.

Marvel at It: the martyr heretiq

"In its blood is the potential, through the fifth line unconscious, to universalize. However, not prepared for the other, it is often naive in its assumptions. The third line personality is a theme of trial and error. Any attempt to universalize out of the subjective is bound to meet resistance."

The description of my life path, my train tracks. Let the vehicle be, so that it may efficiently blast the trumpets of the angels! The 3/5 profile in human design.

MA..R

Sex on the Mind/Solar plexus

Of course I am sexually provocative, my very embodiment here shall redefine sexuality and the notion of 'gender' forever.

MARE MARVEL

MAR

The Solstice, the Dead and the Quiescence

 In the beginning was the Quiesence.

There was a silence that stretched like an arch across eternity – it was perfect and unbroken.

At once, somehow out of the Quiesence there came an emanation – the mysterious rising of an event horizon – a draped dawn across the ceiling of consciousness.

The (To Know To Feel To Deduce) Revolution

Check out: Richard Rudd,

Human Design,

Nassim Haramein,

Yourself

Love.

M.A.R 

Understanding The Ineffable

 the IMAGE


 Thunder over the lake:
 The image of THE MARRYING MAIDEN.
 Thus the superior man
 Understands the transitory
 In the light of the eternity of the end.

Intention and Happenstance

Channel 30-41 is the Channel of Recognition through which we discern the potential experiences that are offered to us, and feel within ourselves how much we are drawn to a particular experience and how much attention and intention we are going to commit to it, or not.

        There are two ways to enter into any experience, the one, where you are not sure if having the experience is a good idea, and question what everyone might say about you if you do it, so even if you do undertake the experience, your approach is half-hearted at best, and you never derive a sense of completion or fulfillment from what happens. The other way to enter an experience is with totality; you weigh up your feelings and come to a point of emotional clarity, then make a jump, a quantum leap into the experience. Whatever happens within the experience, you come out of it with a sense of completion that opens you to all forms of new experiences with an added confidence.


Pressure Baby, Pressure Pressure. 

Put gold stars on 16-22 July, and keep in mind that you will have all of June, July until early August to take advantage of the poetic aspects at play in the universe. They will link your houses of international travel, publishing, broadcasting, academia and legal matters (where Saturn is based), to your house of creativity and artistic expression and romance (where Jupiter is based). The last leg of this dazzling triangle will be in your first house of personality (where Neptune is currently based in Pisces) and this proves the power of your determination and drive will allow you to direct this energy in any way you please.  




 

A Child of the Sea

I am an emotional being (defined solar plexus) and the most intense emotional channel according to HD.  My experience from riding this wave has brought me great knowledge about my emotions.  I had the tendency to question myself, over and over and over again. This is when I was in the lowest point of my wave. And this wave showed up in cycles: within the day, the week and/or the month.  The moment I questioned myself, I was in my emotional wave. I was going lower; completely overwhelmed and plunging into darkness.  Every time that low in my wave was showing up, my tendency was to diagnose a depression and questioning: “how come I am not able to heal it, to make it go away?”  Now, I detoxified myself from this
questioning. Now, I let it be. Now, I keep the questioning to the minimum. Now, I experience the wisdom that this state can bring me. Now, I know that this is temporary. I wait for the wave to go up and I am enthusiastic again. All this knowledge helped me release my toxic thought pattern and enhanced my communication with my family and friends into positivity.

My Open Head Love

Welcome to Human Design. Per Human Design, we are all “lit up”
by neutrinos. Whether they are solar, terra or cosmic neutrinos,
we do not know. Neither do we know whether they are electron,
tau or muon neutrinos that light us up. One fact is that Human
Design popped up after the Supernova1987A in 1987. 

This Supernova caused an influx of neutrinos to rain onto Earth.

Now, take a light bulb, look for the filaments …screw in the bulb,
turn on the light and the filament lights up. See how much of the
room lights up. Now, imagine a person’s body with 64 filaments,
4 of which can combine to a total of 10 combinations (Spectrum of Individuation). Plug this body into the cosmos socket and this person lights up with a personality, thoughts, strengths, fears, knowledge, weaknesses and energy field.  

Light does not go through matter, neutrinos do. About 100 billion
solar neutrinos can go through 2 centimeters of one finger every
second.  

Neutrinos Interpreted

Multiply this by the surface area of your body and the total is
gazillionsof neutrinos go through our body.  And we are not even
aware.

If neutrinos light us up and gazillion neutrinos go through our bodies per second, and we do not all light up the same way, one can then assume that we have certain receptors to catch these neutrinos within our bodies to make who we are. What these receptors are, we cannot answer either. We do know that once we look at someone’s Human Design we continue to be amazed at the make up of each person: we can truly say that each person is a beautiful and individual being in their own way, a piece of the puzzle of humanity.

May Day Transitionals

1st May – Sun (24.2) and Mars (24.1) opposite Saturn (44.1) and trine Pluto (38.1)~

  our mind wants to understand what’s going on, but the incoming energies are not so accessible in that way.   Around this period we must balance our fear of the unknown with our intuitive knowing that something wonderful is happening.  We also need to honour it’s power.

The Sun and Pluto accentuate the power struggle and desire for personal freedom and self actualization.  The Root Centre brings a pressure to do things the way you’ve been taught by your ‘tribe’, so breaking free from this conditioning rather than rebelling is a powerful choice.  The Saturn activation in Gate 44 – Coming to Meet – tips us into a new relationship with the feminine, opens us to the power of creating directly from the void rather than from the ‘traditional’ patriarchal sources.

 Know Thyself

M.A.R

Individuation: The Individed Individual

The whole magic of what individuality is all about is that you are invited to respond to life, to be yourself, to not interfere. If you touch the heart of any individual and ask them what they really care about philosophically, they will tell you: non-interference so they can be themselves.

Today I looked at my individual circuitry. I looked at the Individualist aspect(s) of myself. An individual loves this, a third line being loves this. I love to look at myself. I love to Contemplate, to Contemplate thus: What I Struggle for in the Now.

Except there is a missing link, there is an energy that I was not born with, and this is a fixed sense of self. Which means WHO I struggle (ie. ambitiously work) for is mutative, is changing. Because WHO I am is mutable, is consistently changing...via planetary transits and the aura of the Other.
WHO I struggle for is often not me, is often the struggle of an Other. And I take it on, and try to manifest mystical union, all sexy like Jimmy-and-the-Doors, and I often succeed and often fail. Trial and Error baby.

And I wonder, I contemplate WHO I am, and it can highly frustrate me. Because it is built to mutation; my self is built to mutate. Now, not everyone's Self energy is built for mutation...

and thus the puzzle piece human life comes into play. Fun like play. Fun. Hilarious, and, of course, gravely serious. Yang attracting Yin, searching for wholeness...rigidity meeting fluidity. Fixed selves and mutable selves. Glorious energy synergisms.

Totality, I see totality. Even in my open, yin, sense of Self. I see all totality, aha! I see it because it is an illusion of separateness, individuality is an illusion of separateness.
But it is also glorious and necessary and a suspension for Oneness. It creates the bridge between I and the Other. And without it, I could never see Oneness...because I could never I.


//
And I sometimes stand on the beach and I often float in the ocean.
//
Perfect paradoxes performing passionate pleasures and pains. 

  
 Love,

M.a.R

New Eyes to Universalize

 

"I'm trying out some things with the goal of constructing the atmosphere, or rather, constructing the void. I'm taking a great deal of interest in the plasticity of hollows, though its never interested anyone; this plasticity almost always comes from solids."

           >>> DALI, in the Letters to Lorca 

 

Rheotomic surfaces.

In the spiral of life, all ends are beginnings.

  Gate 63: After Completion.

 

Pegasus: a Sexy Dolphin

Synthesis, to synthesize. What first must come is the analysis, the biting through, the breakage. I think of this song, Born Whole...

                     we born whole, we become half... drumming in her soul as she plucks out the lemongrass

It is this journey of emptying and then filling up again. Life. 

And with each renewed rush of translucent energy, there is this depth that consumes the trough. 

 

As dirty as one can get, there is always the wave of clean.

And clean to once again become dust.

 

Each home is the home of the other. 

This I know but often forget to see.

Branching out and touching the Other is vulnerability in its mutated allocated-energy form. 

And yet each vessel is born a whole tree, branched out beyond. And in the cycles of the sun and moon come the urge to remember how tall one already is. Infinitely tall. A shiny blue-green god. 

"We are Big, we are just scared to Be." a wise and distracted sage once told me. 

And so we grow into our bigness. We do. If it is in Hate or Love, we grow into our Bigness. Into our architecture, our skyscraping, our energy tendrils that leech into the skies above and below. 

I realize now I should perhaps not universalize here, that perhaps not everyone grows to be Big. But I hope for it, I martyr for it, because I see the awe-some potentiality of ALL geometry. Of all mutation mutatin' away like a drunken space cowboy. 

I see Bigness in everyone. 

What I mean to say is I sense infinity in everyone. 

I sense divine architecture. 

Divine.

And as of recent I've been given words for what I've so long sensed, in this desert of my mind. I've found a mental oasis from which to drink voraciously, and where I may find rest until next flight. I've been gifted alchemy, the tonic that alights sprites in my mind and reverberates through my lungs and into the sun that shines in my stomach...the phoenix that sleeps in the closed eye of my navel. 

I've been given words.... "Waiting's Gonna Change My World."

And now I can begin the synthesis. For so long I've been disenchanted, in my thought-filled fantasies that did not align with my realities. I've loitered deep underground in the sewers of a mind that was not mine, where the smell of rotting excrement stained my every movement.

And now the phoenix is waking up, sucking up the dark bile to transform all in an alchemical orchestra. Synthesis. I am waking up. 

And in my sharing, the Other wakes up too. To their Bigness. Synthesis.

And the phoenix smiles as it twists clouds 'round high in the sky, to then retreat to hide. Always.

To be with the other, and then to be alone. Always. Waves a'crestin and crashing. Waves of flames.

I am waking up. To authenticity, and therefore to the depth of experience. It is luminously painful and blissfully hopefilled. It is to amaze and of perfection, of shadow and the form. It is the death of the bird and the glorious re-birth.  

It is big. It is love.

To the same sun and moon,

and to You

M .A. R

 

 

To Wait is to Know

Waiting . . . a most difficult state for many to achieve.  And yet, the most important state to achieve for many.

Some may speed ahead and progress for a while, making quick decisions through pressure or confusion – or make choices by default through lack of negotiating skill.

The value of waiting - whether it be for clarity in the emotional wave, the sacral to announce it's got energy to move in a particular direction, or for the door to be opened through invitation - is to allow decisions to be made without the minds mental framework imposing a direction based solely upon past experience, and in doing so to slowly, slowly move in one's correct trajectory to engage in the life one is designed to live.

And so – what is waiting?

Waiting is described in the dictionary as:

   –the action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or until something else happens.

The thesaurus matches “waiting” with the following verbs:

  – stay (put), remain, rest, stop, halt, pause; linger, loiter, dally; informal-- stick around, hang out, hang around, kill time, waste time, kick one's heels, twiddle one's thumbs; archaic tarry.

To sum up these definitions, it seems clear that  waiting is a form of allowing: to wait is to allow. 

 Imagine the grace of allowing and surrendering, sitting patiently, content with just waiting and watching to see what happens next!

From the moment we begin to walk, talk and move about as infants, we become conditioned to play the social games of modern culture. From the get-go, we learn to compete, compare, fear God and to strive to be socially smart and academically acceptable as dictated by popular society’s expectations.  In this way, we are set up for failure from the beginning.

Comparing, competing and striving to become persons not in tune with our most innate and natural way of being contributes to a very confused society. 

Religion, culture and family traditions often keep us feeling trapped, making it more difficult to apply our natural Human Design strategy and authority.  To learn a new way of being in this world and to be more authentic, we need optimal support for our process of awakening to greater awareness and growing beyond the crystallized habits that defeat us.

Once we are on the path to greater authenticity, we may surprise others when we completely change the way we operate: from forcing ourselves to behave like a Manifestor  – to flowing more naturally in accordance with our true nature and design.

The practice of waiting is quiet and smooth. Waiting is being content in doing what one loves while in a state of waiting.

When truly focused on what we love doing in that moment – not striving to achieve any goal –the act of waiting will naturally take us to where we need to be. Even though others may not understand, persist in simply ‘waiting’ – for magic happens when one waits!

It is up to each of us to practice waiting, and to be true to our own unique process of finding our most natural way of being. Doing what we truly love will help us uncover the naturalness within.

Beyond the act of waiting is the body’s response to those events which are coming towards it. No matter what the Human Design type, the body will always have a reaction to the event or invitation being presented. The trick is to make the best decision when responding to an event or invitation – and to maintain a state of patient waiting for it to come.

To fine tune the mind-body communication, find a place to sit quietly to practice feeling and being aware of the body.  Then wait.  Soon, it may be noticed that it wants to get up and move. Where does the body want to go?  What does it want to do?  By listening and allowing the body to lead, welcomed surprises and fascinating outcomes are in store - which only gets better with practice.



From: http://www.humandesignlove.com/node/46


.LOVE.

m .a. r

\\.Sol Release.//

In all of my work, I always remind people that the moment they get beyond the characteristics of their design, the moment that they can wear the costume of their profile and fulfill their role, they will be taken by their mythology. And in that, everyone who has any contact with them will benefit. They themselves will get to appreciate the beauty of what it is to be here in form surrendered to our choicelessness.

.Mechanics.
.Heretique.
.Trial and Error.
.Wait To Respond.
.Seduction.

Love.
M /.A.\  R

The Wave; An Awesome Wave

 RAPID TRANSFORMATIONS I DO UNDERGO! YES! NO! YES!

Any emotional being moving through the spectrum with the same focus can grasp things at a profound level that may not be able to be articulated as a concept (yet). But that understanding is still powerful. They don't sense the spontaneity of a splenic hunch, which can also be gone in an instant.

It is a depth of feeling unlike any other quality that human beings can have. It is profound clarity.

The magic of clarity is the joke. Clarity is not the same as the truth and clarity can never be 100%. It can only be 99% clear. The magic of emotional awareness and the potential of spirit consciousness is to understand that there is a potential at any moment for the game to change entirely. With the emotional process you can't be 100% sure of anything since the wave is a moving energy.

When an emotionally defined person understands this and lives it, they are truly powerful, deep beings. The people with open solar plexus can partake in that depth if they also understand the emotional mechanic and where it is coming from.

"Knowing often has no way of expressing itself."

Off to the water temple. Hanging with Neptune slung upon my shoulder and the moon under my feet. Killing crabs with compassion and sling shottin' my way through divine doors locked and unreal. Underwater and unsung, the hero moves forward with their gentle ferocity of perseverance.   

LOVE  

...._-=*^*=-_....

MAR