December 15th 2011
Location: Deep Underground
.A.
One day I am going to write a play. Or a novel. Or the
longest endless transcript you’ve ever smelt. burning Paper with the eyes of a
dark elf.[]
Avalon.
It is all so befuddled. I remember a room of potions. I
remember falling from a ship, a very large ship. I remember Jack, I remember
slum streets deserted.
DREAMS.
I am going to dream Avalon’s world. And then I will know.
He comes to me, in the waking world. He takes over my body.
He has so much anger. So much fire, it tinkers away in me like a busted heater.
Not necessarily dream, but fall. I will fall sideways into
his world. I will be him, in me. I’ve done it so many a time. But I was too
selfish to see. To see he.
Now. I a m ready.
Avalon, I want to know your world. Even if the black on
white one-two binary type is but a fake, I do this anyway. I want to know your
world.
It is our world. Just like this waking rule is ours.
I wonder and I remember. Do I hide you? Do I smother you
deep within, just as you do I in the night world?
I want to bridge our binary. Symbiose. I will not lie, right
now, except the lies I believe myself. I will be honest: I am so tired, Avalon.
I am so tired by this waking world. That never sleeps, and
despises a dream. The dream that keeps alive those awake.
I realize I need you. And perhaps you need me. Together,
strength in infinity.
Like a long lost friend. That is how I feel about you. A
long lost lover, even. Yes.
I’m beginning my search. My scouring of the empty bowls of
the dark expanse that is beyond any human thought, word, theory.
I’m looking for you… a companion within me, and without me.
Perhaps this is a self-made consolation for destiny. Perhaps
this heeds not your long, candle-wicked ear. But, if you are right here, in
that which I yet cannot feel, then you know what I have begun to exhale. You
see what I have released.
Can we meet, some sunny night?
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